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WANTS
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-attached to frankie
-12november90
-cabin crew
WANTS
-have a family of my own
what do you want from me'
im falling sick
weak immune system.
need more vitamin C.
and i hope the mozzies
stop sucking my blood
im getting weaker.
my right eye has the tiny "long" thing.
hope it goes away.
more sleep
more water
i need it.
one more month to end of sem!
failed 3 test today.
presentation was crap.
.
not prepared for wed Q & A.
dont bombard me with qns.
why cant they be nicer?
buzzz.
.
im getting really impatient
with people throwing temper on me
because they are being paranoid/worried/stress/upset.
its not the fault of being sensitive-case.
just because im easy to be bullied
doesnt mean you can do it all the time.
2years already.
why cant you appreciate that
ive never once threw my temper back at you.
always allowing you to flare at me.
snarl at me.
saying things that hurt me.
being patient with you.
i even allowed you to be mad at me
for scoring better in some subjects than you.
do i really deserve all this treatment?
i hate myself for being nice
because i dont want to make things awkward btw us.
i guess
you wont stand in my shoes
and i wont be able to stand in your shoes either.
im sick of this.
i hate seeing black faces/environment.
i really dont deserve this at all.
i dont.
seriously.
.
all i want in my life right now.
right now.
is being happy
with anyone that makes me happy naturally.
i dont want to die
knowing ive felt upset.
i want to die
knowing ive been happy with what i have.
.
love is such a powerful word/feeling.
dont have to explain.
i can love a few.
love a tens.
love a hundreds.
love a thousands.
i am willing to give my love.
knowing i wont be able to receieve what ive gave.
am i still willing to give out.
yes.
but at some points of time
i will withdraw.
withdraw from people.
from everything i used to love.
i suppose its just another kind of process in life.
i know by saying
" i love you " frequently
is not as *impactful as
once in a blue moon.
but i do mean it.
each time i say it.
although its so frequent that.
maybe noone will takes it into heart.
i know i do mean it.
.
i love you
frankie.
happy 41months 1day.
counting down to 51....... 62..........72........82....
and yes
countless, my darling =)
.
bye world.
with loves
joycelyn`
.
Monday, February 2, 2009 ( 10:21:00 PM )
im falling sick
weak immune system.
need more vitamin C.
and i hope the mozzies
stop sucking my blood
im getting weaker.
my right eye has the tiny "long" thing.
hope it goes away.
more sleep
more water
i need it.
one more month to end of sem!
failed 3 test today.
presentation was crap.
.
not prepared for wed Q & A.
dont bombard me with qns.
why cant they be nicer?
buzzz.
.
im getting really impatient
with people throwing temper on me
because they are being paranoid/worried/stress/upset.
its not the fault of being sensitive-case.
just because im easy to be bullied
doesnt mean you can do it all the time.
2years already.
why cant you appreciate that
ive never once threw my temper back at you.
always allowing you to flare at me.
snarl at me.
saying things that hurt me.
being patient with you.
i even allowed you to be mad at me
for scoring better in some subjects than you.
do i really deserve all this treatment?
i hate myself for being nice
because i dont want to make things awkward btw us.
i guess
you wont stand in my shoes
and i wont be able to stand in your shoes either.
im sick of this.
i hate seeing black faces/environment.
i really dont deserve this at all.
i dont.
seriously.
.
all i want in my life right now.
right now.
is being happy
with anyone that makes me happy naturally.
i dont want to die
knowing ive felt upset.
i want to die
knowing ive been happy with what i have.
.
love is such a powerful word/feeling.
dont have to explain.
i can love a few.
love a tens.
love a hundreds.
love a thousands.
i am willing to give my love.
knowing i wont be able to receieve what ive gave.
am i still willing to give out.
yes.
but at some points of time
i will withdraw.
withdraw from people.
from everything i used to love.
i suppose its just another kind of process in life.
i know by saying
" i love you " frequently
is not as *impactful as
once in a blue moon.
but i do mean it.
each time i say it.
although its so frequent that.
maybe noone will takes it into heart.
i know i do mean it.
.
i love you
frankie.
happy 41months 1day.
counting down to 51....... 62..........72........82....
and yes
countless, my darling =)
.
bye world.
with loves
joycelyn`
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