JOYCELYN`

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i dont know if its really me
being paranoid
and insecured
about whole thing
or basically
everything.
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i love dancing.
if i give out my all,
it gives me back something.
i cant describe what is it.
i dont have to worry about anything.
.
when i give out my love
i dont get back.
everything makes me feels
im nothing
not even a friend to start with.
which makes me
want to
stop what im doing now.
its not that im tired
of loving people.
its rather bullshit
when they claim
"oh i love you. best friend etc"
but its just words.
not even assurance.
does initiating a msg
so hard?
does two words "take care"
that hard to tell a friend?
i am willing to give you
my attention
but
are you even willing to listen to mine?
i guess not.
i cant always be the one
giving out.
i cant always be the one msging first.
compromise; is it that hard?
my help
my msg
my advice
my words
im
always unappreciated.
i just want to avoid people.
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orgcom.
"when you assume someone,
it shows you dont understand that person well
and
which you think you are interpreting it correctly
but
you may be wrong about it."
.
high-context cultures
are
people
who speak indirectly.
their surroundings often
carries the meaning of their words.
(eyes, body language;learn to observe)
.
low-context cultures
are
people
who speak very direct and straightforward.
their words are often clear and straight.
they are often regarded as
"rude, dont sound apologetic/hesistant people"
.
ima polychronic person
whereby
punctuality is often not stressed
and i do many things at a go.
.
monochronic
is where
punctuality and efficiency are valued
and they do one thing at a time.
.
face-saving strategy.
is when
someone
is showing his/her respect
and is sensitive to your feelings
by not causing
any impoliteness/embarrassment/awkward moments
for you even if you do mistakes etc.
and
also to maintain friendly relations and harmony.
.
its not about being fake
its being who you really are.
and im learning
to accept who im really are.
im different
everyone is different.
i just have different ways
of respecting people
of showing concern for people
of responding to situation
.
if you dont like my personality
i dont expect you to stay.
i will get your hint
and
leave too.
i really dont want
to waste all my time love attention care
wadever i have
to people who dont appreciate at all
it hurts.
.
i want to say
thank you
to my friends
(you know who you are)
that they do appreciate me before=)
i really appreciate alot too.
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thank you ahlee
for the green hairband.
im sorry
that ive never gotten you any stuffs before.
and thankyou for your msg when im sick =)
.
thankyou sam
for your msg when im sick too =)
.
thankyou liting
for being so sweet and considerate =)
.
thankyou joey
for being here with me
for the past few days
when frankie is not around.
when i saw your missed calls/msges
for being extremly worried for me
that very sick day
touched me alot
=))
i cant explain how much
im really thankful towards you.
im sorry
at times
ive said nonsence to you
making your day even worse
when youre already feeling so lousy.
thank you for not pushing me away
just because i suck.
thank you for really accepting me as who i am.
i shall leave the rest of words in my heart =)
and
haha
we're still figuring out
why
i'll argue with frank frequently
but i dont argue that often with you.
i guess
you dont irritate me
as much as frankie does.
hahahaa.
maybe the love for you and frankie is different.
LOL.
i dont want to argue with you either.
we might just kill one another.
LOL.
.
congrats serene lim!
being enlisted for hey gorgeous!
=)
you are pretty
be confident!
have fun!
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streetjazz people
are fun to be with.
people
usually misinterpret that
jazz people are
disciplined
quiet
modest
haha.
they are so different!
=)
which makes the atmosphere much more lively.
with fredy new blond hair
with raz rebonded hair
with fred brown colour hair
HAHAHA.
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its friday.
saturday
sunday
monday
tuesday
YES YOURE GONNA BE HOME!
=DDDDDD
i have so much to share with you
and
i
promise
i wont shout/scold/argue/fight with you
hahaa =DD
happyy 39th on 1st december08
=DD
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when down
with flu cough headache
comes diarrhea
worse still
very bad cramp
-.-
why must all these happen
when youre away
concidence*
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ive gotten the nra tickets.
but i wont give out
unless everyone has paid me
please understand
=)
thank you!
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i love staying home nowadays.
though i would love to travel out alone
but my body condition doesnt allow me to.
sometimes
being alone
is enjoyable.
.
im waiting for you to come home =))

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