JOYCELYN`

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ive spent my evening time
standing in front of my kitchen window.
looking across the air.
indonesia-.-
east coast beach.
sky
birds
more sky.
ive never felt more calm
than before recently.
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sometimes by not thinking
by slowing down
by having a break/rest
will help a lot.
especially with many things rushing
past our lives now.
which is why
the more we should slow down.
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ive been having migrain* these few days.
im suffocating.
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who am i?
what is inside me?
why does my heart ..
why cant i fight back?
sometimes
i really dont like something
but i dont want to make a fuss out of it.
but i know its wrong.
i dont like
you throwing temper on me.
it hurts.
or is joey right?
because youre the only person in class
who talks to me.
and
not because youre my goodfriend.
who is my goodfriend then?
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sometimes im so afraid to get higher marks than you
because i dont want to get an awful remark from you.
but i cant.
its my results.
and i dont want to fall out with you.
because youre someone around me.
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and ive learnt something.
not to be dependent on my friends.
im still learning.
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i think
ive become more sensitive now.
ive been thinking alot.
alot
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can you take some time of yours
to be with me?
can you hack your parents.
haha.
i understand.
alright.
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i spent my day home today.
finished school at 1140am.
heh heh.
slept from 2-530.
loved it.
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ive been having alot of
dreams these few days.
alot of bad dreams.
ive seen my friends
dying.
and its not just kat now.
ive seen more.
i saw
iris
andreas
more
and i saw myself.
dreams differ from reality.
i hope
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ive grown fats
everywhere.
=)
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dreams is next week.
will my back be able to hold longer?
i dont want to pull down the whole team/group.
suntec is weeks later.
will i be able to pull off the show?
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ive got many projs/quiz/test up.
oooh.
i had quiz this morning.
my friend just told me last night
when i was having modern.
i felt angry.
but then i thought.
it was also my fault
because i didnt initiate to ask.
and i assumed they'll tell me earlier
because they're my friends.
but yup.
i still appreciate =)
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modern was great.
loved it alot.
ryan is funny.
a man full of humour.
haha.
and yes
this is the first time
in my whole modern class
did ryan
mentioned my name.
i fear of my techniques.
i will be more confident in myself.
i will learn.
MUSIC-STYLE-CHOREO.
its in my head now.
haaa
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im waiting for you, my love
enjoy popping=)

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