thats me`

e m P t Y

what do you want from me'

hmmmph

Saturday, February 23, 2008 ( 1:37:00 AM )

i dont know wad do i want now.

im just stuck at this cross-junction,

deciding which route should i take

that will lead to another path in my life.

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full out

is the word that comes into my brain

when im dancing.

full-out was never enough.

after cooling down from dance,

the sharp pain will hit over again.

thats a price to pay.

but is it worth feeling the pain?

i get irritated when

i cant catch the steps

but i wont give up

just that my priority is not right now.

dance is one of my priority

but its not the top.

after sat-class.

gin told us we have deproved as a team

i did self-reflecting.

yup i did deproved.

heck those trainings ive went

because ..

no matter wad,

i did deproved.

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i am more than happy

that my family are very supportive

of wad i love in life.

i appreciate that alot.

im just astonished when

i see the number of raising hands

about parents unsupportive of dance

and will not be coming to the concert at all.

i mean,

its really.

sad.

its hard to change one's mindset.

but someday,

your determination and love will prove them wrong.

hmmmm.

i hate speaking in english.

i just suck at it.

ah damn it.

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sometimes,

i prefer mental-dancing.

when the music plays,

the beats hit,

there's this form of visual image

dancing on its own.

doing steps which ive never seen

( hardly do i watch video)

i wish it was never-ending.

i love it.

i mean,

yup.

i love that image dancing on its own.

without fearing how ppl will look and comment her.

she just dances with love.

i dunno how to explain it.

i just love it =D

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i know i have not been commited to dance lately.

i have no idea wad went wrong either.

its like.

half-hearted.

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have you ever stop wad youre doing

and look at the sky?

we're always rushing in our lives.

rushing to school,work,dance,home etc.

that we missed admiring the nature.

i love the sky.

the sunlight being emitted out by the sunset

where different patterns of white candy floss

do a formation around the sun.

its really beautiful.

how nature has its beauty

that ppl just dismiss it.

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why does clouds have different patterns?

how did they clump together and separate so fast?

how can there be strong electrons within the clouds

and create thunder when it hits another

during thunderstorm?

how is that planes can fly thru the clouds

without hitting the electrons,

putting aside turbulence?

how is it that i can touch the clouds in the mountain

without being electricuted?

its funny how things can be.

and i would be so silly to ask myself questions.

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typical girls are not hard to find.

you can say that im one of them when it comes to dressing.

but when it comes to hard, its a different thing.

would they dare allow their siblings to chip off their fringe?

would they want to cut off their lovely straight hair?

nope.

usually they'll keep it for ages.

i know every single girls wants to be pretty.

yup.

pretty.

perharps for me.

i like playing around with hair.

( if only i have the money)

daring to dress as tomboyish would NOT be appreciated by most guys.

to those girls,

being tomboyish, its hell.

they would rather stick their faces at home.

lol.

thats life, isnt it?

you can dress whole lot well

and guys ogle at you

but when it comes to love,

its still the inner beauty that counts

and

determine how far can your relationship goes

unless

youre seeking for a play-partner

which i am not surprised at all.

i know its normal for girls to dress up

again.

i cant agree more that

at times

im jealous of their beauty or dressings.

i was not born with pretty face

but im not gonna let that bring my ego down

to worship those beauties.

it would be too off.

hmmmm.

three types of girls.

pretty girls-objects.

average girls-daily accessories

lazy girls-rejects.

plastic surgery girls-monster.

qoute that from 200pounds beauty.

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if my guy leaves me for another girl.

the girl should be prepared

for him to leave her for another girl.

and the cycle will goes on non-stop.

unless a miracle happens

and break the chain.

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ive become mean after my trip back.

i see things with hatred eyes.

i feel things with jealous heart.

i hear things with anger ears.

i have no idea wads got into m

but i shall not be nice to everyone

like before.

yup.

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red packets.

my dad side.

everyone except my godparents and 1uncle.

gave me 4bucks.

fainting in anger.

my mum gave them like 10bucks.

feel like whacking their faces.

must have gamble away the money.

my dad's friend gave 4times the amt my relatives gave.

wad a world.

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youre freaking too much.

dont test my patience,

fcuking ah pek.

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time is the only medicine.

stop running away or using death on me.

i cant hold long.

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exhausted again.

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i love you`