JOYCELYN`

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i cant stand how possesive im getting.
and
i cant control the way i feel.
i cant control my own feelings,
let alone others could.
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val thing is cleared up.
she assumes too much.
and
embarrassment is wad she gets in the end.
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youre acting strangely.
youre always frowing.
youre not you.
maybe you dont love me anymore.
maybe youre just staying
for the sake of me not looking down at you
as you let go
but the fact is
i dont look down on you,
not anyone else
even though the aura i gave out is bad.
but i know im not.
damn it.
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i know how bad my temper is.
i know how worse my jealously is.
it just occured to me
im feeling insecure
thats why my feelings are overtaking my mind.
that explains my possessive-ness.
i know its bad.
i know myself.
i have to trust a person
but its so hard trusting someone
especially one whom you love the most
in your life
and one whom swear to make you believe him
but in the end,
it all comes back to sqaure.
you cant blame me for not trusting him easily.
you cant blame me for his repeated explanations.
and oo uncle.
stay out of our affairs.
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sometimes
we're not even arguing.
we're so chill
so cool
so stable.
although he's been trying to explain over again.
and i said i understand =)
but sometimes
we, human, just wants to explain again to get the msg across
clearly,
right?
so wads wrong with that?
there you rushed into the room
and screamed.
calling me names like
EVIL LADY
reason: i made your son sent me home
and he reached home late and sleep late.
i FAINT.
the thing is.
i din force him to send me home
besides,
i always thought a boyfriend should send his gf home?
or am i wrong to say that?
another screamed
I HATE THIS LADY.
reason: i dont believe your explanations.
i FAINT again.
its not like i din believe.
i din even shout at him or wad.
and aren you contradicting yourself?
your son explained to you
but you dont believe yourself.
aren you contradicting yourself?
A POT CALLING A KETTLE BLACK?
i know im rude
but if i dont get a basic respect,
how do you want me to respect someone who dont?
and i wont.
so yea.
i dont care wad you do to make us breakup.
if either of us gives in.
it shows how EVIL you are.
give us back our fcuking freedom!.
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he himself.
finds that
if his parents give an reasonable explaination.
he would give in to them.
=(
im really tired.
i mean.
yes im really tired.
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he's sick today.
i cant even go to his house to cook porridge for him either.
wad kind of r'ship style am i having?
i feel SO RESTRICTED!
damn it.
damn my fcuking life!
damn on evil people i met.
damn it`
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on bus home.
the dark coloured bus driver scolded a little boy
for banging on the door
to catch his attention as he wanted to drive off.
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jap group.
someone idea is so similar to ours.
even the sentence.
fcuk those shits`
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think bout yourself
before commenting on someone else`
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i've known her for 5years.
how can i possibly not know her well.
i wont be affected by your impression towards her
because i know deeply she's not!
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IM SUPER TIRED!
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its you yourself who
dont know how to teach well
so dont blame others
for not having COMMONSENSE to know.
as if you have commonsense either.
haha.
whose the one being teaching you all this while
when noone else does?
think about it, you.
and
dont look at me
asking me to teach a better job this thurs.
DONT WORRY.
if you dont understand,
i'll go
use your common sense
just like how you treated us =D
i understand why youre alone now.
where have all your friends went to.
i see the picture so clear now =)
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but my anger comes and goes.
i guess some hatred of mine has already left.
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i love you
but is the love draining away?

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