JOYCELYN`

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seriously.
i dont like people
who place their friendster
profile private.
its like.
if youre so mysterious,
whats the point of having a friendster
account?
whats the point of having friends?
if you wanna have privacy,
dont even come online.
seriously ...
and its like.
dont act so close when youre not close
to him.
dont act.
dropping testi like.
drop by*
hello*
loves*
teach me dancing*
teach me pop*
i can do it*
bla bla bla`
alright.
im jealous, cant i?
im a human with feelings.
its like.
so idiot.
and i bet he's gonna say..
no, not close.
just friends.
they write testi, wad can i say?
bish.
wads wrong with you?
no.
wads wrong with me?
i dont like being sensitive.
but.
i cant help it.
throwing temper is one way.
to show that i care.
if you dont like it,
wad can i do?
if you dont bother to change for me,
why should i change?
why should i even change
when its me in the first place?
i cant help feeling moody
after reading the past.
i just.
cant change the fact.
i always tell you things
but you dont.
bluntly,
i hate it.
i hate it when im always the one talking.
i hate it when im the one trying to understand.
i hate it when im always telling you stuffs
i hate it when im kept in the dark.
i hate it when girls pounce on you and you just ignore.
i hate it that im always so jealous.
i hate it that i cant even dance properly.
i hate it that now and then when i walk, my knee has to hurt.
i hate it that i have to be careful of myself when i dance.
i hate it that you cant even be here.
i hate it that im so useless.
i hate it that we cant even talk nicely.
i hate it that you enjoy time with other girls.
i hate it that im not the one.
i hate it that im the one waiting.
i hate waiting.
i hate it that you cant even trust me.
i hate it so much.
just so much.
can i say i hate you as well?
but i know deeply i dont
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had cramps while surveying.
damn.
i could have done more.
im sorry i caused you to miss your dinner.
im so mean.
mean and selfish and sensitive creature.
no.
human.
thank you for being here for me.
why couldn i just appreciate you?
why am i so dumb?
why am i so heartless?
why am i so damnit?
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am i happy?
i love your shoulders.
but i know you dont care.
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i feel so empty.
there's this feeling around me.
making me feel so weird.
when you hugged,
i felt secure.
though i dont tell you`
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realised had few stage experience.
since sec life k.
erm..
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sec2 teachers day.
perform with
melise. fabienne. atiqah. yining. yenly.
pink girls.
gosh.
and we look so funny!
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sec3 annual camp.
dance for the group and won.
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sec3 fashion fiesta with southeast community.
at paya lebar.
i was the dancing betty boop.
where's my pay!
haha`
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sec3 environmental fashionshow
at suntec.
represented bedok south.
the group won second.
being a model.
walked on the stage.
damn =)
i had that dao face.
but.
im good =D
watched the video this morning.
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sec3.
singing competition
with jingwen melise.
won second.
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sec 4.
chinese new year.
sang with fabienne and lifang.
-
this year.
vibe competition.
champion.
with frank meichin iris vera corn nelson kaiwen
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more coming up.
yes!
=D
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its so unfair
that guys and girls treated differently.
that guys can say awful stuffs bout girls.
but when girls do that,
they'll rape or murder the girls.
idiot shit.
and some countries
are still practicing that
boys are more important than girls.
damn.
im gonna rattle my story again.
if there's no girls,
the boys will be deprived of sex.
and when there's no sex,
there wont be babies.
wont even be generation if thats
wad they care since last century.
unless they have those super
advanced technology
that has lab which will store their sperm
and girls egg.
simple.
bish them!
how cruel are they to kill their own child?!
sure go to hell.
lols
-
exams this friday.
aint studying yet.
the survey job is just too tempting.
just afraid they wont pay me on time.
i trust them.
alright`
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i hate deciding.
i hate choosing.
when you dont even know wad you want.
-
i thought i'll be happy.
i really am
but.
is something bothering me?
wad is it that its bothering me?
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why does mummy words has to hurt?
is it true?
i dunno.
they dont know.
they cant see.
who we are.
where's the other me.
come to me.
noone can touch.
hiding.
covered.
all about.
-
when there was me and you.
i finally found.
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im really bored!
i love green!













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alright.
off to bed.
yawns!

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