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Thursday, January 7, 2010 ( 1:23:00 AM )

why do ppl always say

they wont hurt you because youre're their loved ones

but yet

they still go ahead and do it?

pointless to say words that

doesnt mean anything in the end.

right.

i dont know

how she dislike him

him dislike him

him dislike her

her dislike me

me dislike him

him dislike her again.

but we are ALL still friends in the same circle

calling one hypocrite = ALL of us are hypocrites.

how A and B willl bitch about C

and how B and C will bitch about A

and how A and C will bitch about B

and how A B C will bitch about D

and goes round round.

but we are ALL still close friends in the same circle.

how gossips/rumours got spread around

we tend to trust our friends/anyone

and sometimes you forgive them for accidentally

leaking out to others

but after

couple or countless times they did it,

would you still share with them?

even if it could be just a harmless remark

made out of spite.

it is still isnt nice to let

people who you didnt intend to hurt

got hurt by hearing it not from your mouth

but else where

and thats where bearing grudges comes from.

thought all of this on plane.

i am such a hypocrite

and it hurts knowing that i am

and im not doing aything

and damn those shameless guys.

touch touch also feel shiok.

useless balls-.-

bye world.

joycelyn`

turkey.

Friday, January 1, 2010 ( 9:50:00 AM )

turkey was total opposite

from what i have imagined before i touch there.

BA-tourguide from 5 stars was awesome!

he's definitely one of the best tourguide ive ever met.

always laughing

always making sure family stays together.

always telling jokes to keep us awake.

always entertaining us.

more on the list.

( i cant think now. lol )

he has been a tourguide since age of 23 for 17years.

goodness.

imagine having to speak

the same thing to the different tours.

staying the same hotel.

having the same breakfast/lunch/dinner all the time.

he worked 300days out of 365days.

woah.

scenery was good.

cappadocia.

ankara

istanbul

dolu.

temperature was good!

cold

but due to climate changes, no snow =(

we sat hot air balloon!

the pilot was woah too.

been flying for 15years.

he holds a degree in historian bla bla

( i cant rmmr)

hahaha.

volcanic stone.

had turkish icecream

lemon with chocolate!

YUMYUM!

met few other around our age people.

malay-chinese family.

they were outgoing people.

we get along pretty fast and easy =)

turkey is 6hours behind singapore time.

i should be sleeping right now.

hahahaa.

my brain is shutting down.

i dont like long flights.

12hours.

cause we pulled over at dubai.

we counted down at dubai,

while waiting for take off.

hahahaha!

gonna catch some sleep now.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

i dont have any resolutions.

hhahaaa

gonna live life as it goes each day.

bye world

loves, joycelyn` disappointed you didnt came to pick me up

hello

Tuesday, December 15, 2009 ( 12:57:00 AM )

300th post for this blog.

booger is here with us since fri.

great having him back home.

for now at least.

he's going home on wed again =(

he rmmbr my mum and me the most.

hahahaha

and he loves the way i smell.

lOL.

cause he cant stop smelling me and

laying right beside me unless i move.

love him.

recital was good =)

felt that its shorter compared to last time.

lol.

totally different feel

different working style

all the prawns/volturi for our item.

im proud to be in the item again =)

i doubt i'll be lucky next round.

everyone is . awesome!

goodness.

=)))

its cold.

and i think im starting to think again.

alright.

bye world.

loves, joycelyn`

naggy

Thursday, December 10, 2009 ( 2:46:00 AM )

i dont know why do i get upset
over friends who dont give a shit bout me.
i dont know why do i bitch
when they bitch about me.
i dont know why am i
calling the kettle black
when im the pot.
i dont know.
people do contradict theirselves.
dont deny.
you are too.
we all do.
how often
do your find your words
changing as soon as you find yourself in danger
or the situation doesnt look pleasant to you.
your actions as well.
you can hide
and friends dont observe that well
but yeaa.
someday somehow
the wolves' skin will peal off .
.
how i find about my ungrateful friends.
simple.
project.
etc etc
anywhere.
it takes time.
hell lots of my time.
cant everyone just be nice people.
i guess daddy is right.
one grain of rice, millions different people
with different personality eats it.
i mean.
there are nice people out there
and im happy to cross path with them.
i just dont see why a person wanna be mean
just because
she/he has a bad day before that.
she/he has family/relationship prob.
she/he just wanna have things going her/his way.
she/he thinks they're always right when the facts were smacked on their faces.
list goes on.
some assumptions are seen as unhealthy.
but have we ever thought
sometimes
its like preparation beforehand. ( if it really happens)
i dont know.
i always assume and doubt
and sometimes
my fear bla bla bla
do come true.
hmmm.
when you say
im your close/best/good/sister friend?
do you mean it
or youre just keeping me beside you?
i will follow with wad my feelings says so.
i wont lie about it.
some things,
you cant just lie.
does happiness lies in lies or truth?
you rather be happy living under lies or breathing freely under truth?
dont lie to yourself.
when stuffs dont work, sort it out.
self-happiness worth much more than reputation.
=))
bye world.
goodnight!
loves, joycelyn`

attitude me.

Sunday, November 22, 2009 ( 2:13:00 AM )

sometimes i wish i could

show my attitude when im with anyone

but i dont want to be treated back the same way.

+ my stupid weakness of being soft-hearted

always gets in the way

even when im f. angry.

even before voicing out

i get myself worried of this that

worried if will argue

rephrasing my sentence over again

if the person wil anyhow think

if it will backfire to me.

if they will vent out to me too.

i even had to think of all the after-talking-stuffs

before i could even think of my feelings.

and did it get better after voicing.

yes to some

no to some.

and usually, ppl dont voice out until i voice out.

ppl dont change

i dont change either.

and i cant expect from anyone.

the only person whom i can vent out anything

anything even if it tells alot about

how mean selfish fuckedup sensitive joycelyn is

and someday you might leave too

when you cant stand me.

but

thank you for always listening to my rubbish etc etc etc.

how i wish

its so simple to just leave a person

when i dont feel good/right/comfortable.

though you left me all alone to search for new group,

when i sat with my new groupmates,

leaving you alone behind,

fuck man.

my heart sours for you

i feel so bad and mean and sorry.

LIKE FUCK.

you did all those to me

and yet

i still feel soft for you

wad the fcuk is wrong with me sia.

why cant i just be fucking firm.

without sympathy

without feelings.

without EMPATHY.

damn it.

stupid

ms.nice joyce

kills all those attitude that some ppl deserve.

FUCKEDUP.

ima happy girl. hahaa

Monday, November 16, 2009 ( 2:17:00 AM )

hello!
=)))
my birthday was good =)
though i spent my morning and afternoon in class.
had wishes from unexpected people
and that warm me up.
thank you to you all
who made me felt different.
made me acknowledge
who loves and cares about me
although they dont show often in daily life.
i have presents which i so loved it!
=)))))))))))))
and i had wonderful delicious yumyum food!
i had my favourites for the past 5 days.
my friends
my food
my family
my boyfriend.
and it doesnt matter how late your wishes came to me,
its all your thoughts which matter most to me =D
.
and it got me thinking.
its so easy to make someone smile
yet human always have this tiny little
selfish me-side
that wants to destroy others happiness.
wait again.
but you dont deserve the happiness
that i should give
because you dont give it to others in the first place.
heh
.
frankie starting sip tmr.
3months is gonna passs soon.
joey they all ending in 2 weeks time.
see, fast =)
convincing myself
hahaaa
.
alright
bye world!
loves, joycelyn`

noone is perfect afterall.

Monday, November 9, 2009 ( 1:35:00 AM )

its been a while since i last cried it all out.

it felt good when i fell asleep almost immediately after that.

bye world.

joycelyn`

.nah

Monday, November 2, 2009 ( 11:05:00 PM )

down with throat and nose infection again.

thankfully, no fever this time =)

resting home.

need to rush project

but im not feeling too well

shall stop thinking about

matters

that gets me upset.

bye world.

-joycelyn`

yucks.

Thursday, October 29, 2009 ( 4:15:00 PM )

i used to think that friendship are like relationship.

we both love each other at times

we also hate each other at times.

being happy and unhappy

with the times we spent together was common.

no matter what happen,

you think of your friends/boyfriend/girlfriend first

before you make any decision.

but well.

not in my case.

even though you get on my nerves almost every time.

i willl consider your feelings.

and not to make us feel awkward,

i will stay with you in a group.

so yea.

i stayed on every project with you.

till now.

last semester of the year.

i would have appreciated you

telling straight to me that you didnt want to work with me.

and not someone else

and a middle-person has to tell me.

i can think both positive and negative stuffs.

positive- that i get to work with new ppl

negative- lots of.

i shouldn have cared about your feelings back then.

i should have cut it straight.

now im back alone.

searching for new people

when everyone else stays with their own cliques since year1.

i shouldn be faithful.

i should make myself feel comfortable

rather than easing the awkward moments

by staying.

i hate being silly enough.

its the low-down-feeling im experiencing now.

must be the period week.

i want to be okay soon.

now, all i want is frankie and my bed.

bye world.

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